I am back to blogging and hence thinking after nearly two years. Lets hope i keep thinking. 
Reborn Tuesday, Oct 20 2009
Reflections 10:46 am
Wonder where i am headed Tuesday, Oct 30 2007
Entrepreneurial Journey 12:46 am
I wonder where i am headed? its scary sometimes , sometimes its lonely.
“Forsaken” (putting up stuff i had hidden off up again) Tuesday, Oct 2 2007
Reflections 8:10 am
My Love,
August is here and my heart fills with joy, like horse walking into a green meadow. But I pull hard at the reins to stop it from its jaunts. For the heart does nt understand simple things like the fact that You and I are at a great distance now. And August is not a month to be excited anymore. At least not as much. Forgive it, its indulgences as it sends you a gift again this year for your birthday. Perhaps next year i will convince it otherwise. Silly as it is , it chose them much carefully..irony is of course they seem the best gifts yet. I would not want your new year to be spoiled by things that may upset you on your special day. So i am sending a bit early. I can only hope you like them unlike our conversations now.
I know you love not me, but another Man. I have long accepted that. But my heart wonders if you will remember me .. remember us..I hope not all memories are of pain and mistreatment. Atleast the “us” had one moment of divinity for you i hope. I pray for forgiveness everyday as your words ” You make me want to kill myself” still haunt me and freeze my heart. i hope someday i will understand what i did to have the person i loved so much say that. God bless you. Unlike my failure, you have filled my memory with so many wonderful moments of love that they would suffice even for a lifetime by themselves. Though i am trying live beyond them, presently i much still bound to feel guilty about considering another. It is silly and impractical i agree but then where does the heart listen to reason.
Anyway on the eve of your birthday i just wanted to tell you that. I am proud of you and i truly believe now that you don’t need anymore gyaan or other stuff from me to reach your goal. Your progress in the last few months has given me that confidence. So I have let you be and won’t disturb your life unless you call for my help. After all i still love you and would be more then glad to see you achieve the extraordinary. Have a lovely life ahead
Love
We- something i wrote two years back Tuesday, Oct 2 2007
Reflections 8:05 am
What are we but our actions.Our actions show our ideals. Our ideals show us our belief system is. What God is like for us and the Universe looks like for us. For George BUsh ,it is ” you are with me or against me” .. so his God is a stern God.. and his world is full of enemies and potential enemies. For all that we read and talk about .. ultimately we follow what ew truly believe in. I have always spoken about integrity, spoken about being anti corrupt.. but the truth is i dont even think twice before greasing a TC’s hand for a quick ticket. And that my friend is just the start. Bussiness takes greasing to unimaginabe levels. So if i believed in integrity where did my courage go to oppose all this? Nobody forced me bribe the railway officials. The quickness and comfort of an AC 2 tier compared to a general class thats what made want to forgo my integrity.. comfort and luxury .. The irony is of course that i bribed my own integrity with my own money. For a small price i gave my principles. The world is there a mere reflection thy self.. as sow , so shall you reap , my old english teacher used to say. The words are golden. The next time i catch myself complaining about the state of affairs , i will first find out how i was responsible of the state of affairs
Am I getting old? Sunday, Sep 23 2007
Reflections 3:08 pm
I don’t know why but lately i turned quite sentimental about people. I miss people close to me enough to hurt and feel lonely.
I wonder if i am getting old or i got a cold? I bought two photo frames and put pics of my favourite people in it.. I wonder why i never felt the need before and today feel it so strong. What has changed inside me. Is it the realization that i am mortal and life is fragile. Is that i dont like the pace of change life has taken or i am afraid to go into the future knowing these times..o these sweet times will never return..
Suddenly no amount ‘I love you’ or just conversations seem enough.. ojust little more before the globe turns once more.
I know not what to say.
Lesson 2: Health is king Sunday, Aug 26 2007
Entrepreneurial Journey 6:52 pm
learnt my lesson number 2:
there is no sick leave for the entrepreneur. So if you fall sick, be ready to stay hungry as well
Must not compromise on health and fitness with too much work.. long term sustainabilty important
Lesson 1:keep an open mind Sunday, Jul 29 2007
Entrepreneurial Journey 9:34 am
I am so sure that i want to do entrepreneurship and that too in education that know already know what i need to give attention to and what to ignore.
Costly lesson. Knowing i would be interested in education in Rural India, i did not even give a second look to the International exchange program. Turned out it was a huge mistake. Apparently one of schools which i barely even looked at, The Robert Smith School in University of Maryland, has the worlds top centre for entrepreneurship. So i missed an easy opportunity to learn and network well because i already knew what i wanted to do. And didnt bother to check the opportunity.
Next time: Check out the opportunity and what it could hold
Let the big man talk Saturday, Jul 7 2007
Uncategorized 3:08 pm
what to do Tuesday, Jul 3 2007
Reflections 1:26 pm
Life is funny, you think you are clear on everything and suddenly one day it all comes down just like that. You hit a low for apparently no reason. I like i did for the [ast few days. Actually last few days have been really good to me. With great things happening in my life. . finding new friends, making new business deals and such. Yet i decided to be cribby about it. So much so, that today finally i skipped the whole day. I think back find it so ridiculous but hey then it made a lot more sense to just stick in bed.
So what is earth shattering reason for being in bed. . remberance of a women who broke my heart.. or rather her touch.. silly really. Sometimes it s best not rake up the past. Because its already past. let it be. Rather to spend my time in building the future. Which is the blank. What do i want my future to look like. Nice white blank board. Kya karna hai future ka??
wat to do yaar?
Letter to a junior Saturday, Jun 30 2007
and so the world must be 7:26 pm
Dear Rajandeep,
It was nice to pen down your thoughts and send it across to the batch. Though most of my batchmates had difficulty deciphering that mail. You will be able to write appreciation mails that people will actually read once you have the Consumer Behaviour Course and read about something called ‘cost of thinking’. Since long letters are an attributed speciality of mine, naturally your letter sparked association with me. For better or worse depends on whether you are a watif or watis. Besides making a batchmate of mine to ask me to reply to your letter. After all everyone loves a good “bhasad”.
A also since our much respected General Secretary is a man of few words and the council prefers to keep mum on batchmails, i take the privilege of replying to your mail and making the “big speech”
First and foremost , welcome to MDi , you have just entered a business school which you will exit as one of the world s top business schools. How do i know? Well cause i ( and the council for that matter) know, my juniors are going to make it one. With your abiltiy and talent ( whichi saw plenty in blitzkreigh) it should be a piece of cake. I will honest though. This a selfish thing on my part of course. It was my dream to exit from the worlds best school even if i had not entered one. So i bored my my batchmates to death with my ppt and letters and letters of turning this place into something bigger. I don’t know if they genuine bought my dream and decided to share it or just got active to shut me up 
(pun intended) but yes we have to thank this council and and its various members for a lot of good thng we have on campus and we will see in the coming days. So like i said i pretty sure you guys will make this place rock internationally. We will see some participation in interational paper contest to start with or placements and such others. I am not worried as i said in any manner as far as talent goes. But i do worry about two aspects. Pride and unity. I was genuinely suprised that none of you guys came back with a strong pg07 rockss kind of thing. I remember during our time a similar challege was put forth by our seniors with their best dancer versus ours, and we yelled and hooted and supported our girl like hell. so get your act together there. kuch Josh dikhao yaar. Humme bhi laage aapne juniors hey!.
The part is of course is if you decide to share this dream then, you must beware distractors. Afterall where ever there is a dream or a man is trying build something , there will hecklers and demotivators trying to dampen your spirit. Learn to hold on to your dream, need not be this one.. let it be your own dream. If learn to do that, i promise you , you will live a life you love and laugh over with satisfaction when you are old. Just as guide against distractors this is what i always remember, ” My dream becoming reality is difficult task, i have to fight to protect it everyday, and perhaps bleed for it. What if i failed.. how would it be different from any other normal day in my life? what would i really lose…on the other hand if i succeeded in making the dream a reality .. if i passed out on my convocation from an institute with greater respect then HBS or Wharton how would my life feel..especially knowing i had played a part in making it reach there. Would it not be worth all the trouble. ” You will discover that most heckers and detractors can’t help doing what they do, so DO NOT HATE THEM OR JUDGE THEM.. one day they will find the courage to believe in themselves and that day they will thank you. It s past time here to nick name poeple ..try and brand them.. people get a kick out of it..because if they can find some else to hate and blame for their problems then they can live with themselves. Don’t fall into that trap. If you become one of the those who gets picked on, thank your stars they find you interesting enough to make you a part of their thinking. And dont judge them for that. let them be.
I have only two pieces of gyaan to give to you:
1. Focus your energy instead in building your dream.. and pick a dream big enough to need all your love and care for the rest of your life and then not a single day will you find yourself beaten or miserable. cos you will be simply too busy to bother with chintu-pintu stuff.
2. Remember to enjoy what you are doing. You will live life only once. If don’t like something and still have to do it. Instead of finding ways to fighting it ( like cheating for fin paper cos you hate fin) accept it and look for ways to enjoy that expirence ( how would i handle my money when i have a music band).
I would like to add a little incentive for you guys. We ( Alumini Committee) ran a contest last year on the identity of a Mandevian
I am throwing in a Dinner with drinks ( if you drink) or a movie if you please to the best three response to this statement :
I am the Mandevian , and the Mandevian is… ( to be completed in 2 to 250 words)
Looking forward to some good responses. Write from your heart. there is no right answer to this one.
That’s all the gyaan for now
Warm Regards
A Mandevian
